June 10, 2022

Group Therapy today was more of the same, my mind not wanting to participate a lot, but with only one other person showing up to group therapy like usual, I had to participate more than I wanted. With the fear of losing my therapy that has truly helped me make great strides in getting better. It isn’t until a few weeks after each session that I realize I am making changes in my life. Just getting to talk to someone that isn’t going to judge me and listen to my struggles makes a world of a difference. I hope when the time comes to start rebuilding my life with a new group of friends, that I am able to find people that have the same level of empathy toward me and that will not judge me based upon whatever legal outcome I receive. In group today, I gained some changes I want to implement into my life from listen to the other person in the therapy sessions. I decided I need to start not caring about the judgement of others on me and need to realize that is more of a reflection of them and not on myself. Truly good people have compassion toward others not judgment. It is not a Pastor once told me, let those who are without sin cast the first stone.  

Yard sales tomorrow, so I am hoping for some good finds, that will help me cover my bills while I am trying to get my legal woes figured out and get my medication under control. I am still suffering from withdrawal and I still get severe brain jolts. I look forward to the day I no longer suffer from brain jolts from stopping the anti-depressants and from withdrawal craves for the severe manic high I had from taking the anti-depressants that I should never of been prescribed with bipolar disorder.