July 21, 2022

Still no response from the other day when I sent my statement to my former friend. I feel so liberated through the modified use of “i-statements” I feel it was a good way to express how I feel and why. I am so grateful that Lauren shared the idea of using “I=statements” when dealing with former friends even though at that moment I didn’t want to address any of my former friends. This time though I wanted to share how people have destroyed me especially after the incident from a few weeks ago when the same former friend used my blog in a negative manner. I think if I ever encounter another former friend that hurt me, I will use “I-statements” again. I am getting to the point when I don’t want to let former friends have a hold of me and continue to make me feel horrible. I now want to let them have it right back, why using “I-statements” to tell them how I feel and why I feel that way because of them. For me I was never a horrible person to them, so they don’t deserve to be able to go around talking bad about me and saying how horrible I am. I don’t feel I will ever get a response from the former friend that I messaged back, but that silence will speak volumes.

School today was amazing because several people asked for my opinion because they said I am very smart. IT felt nice for people to look at me in positive light even if it was just a small incidence. Legos continue to be a great coping mechanism for me and a great therapeutic way to handle my mental health. Tomorrow is group therapy, which I currently am not looking forward to. I feel like I have lost my connection with these people and I just look forward to my next individual session with Lauren on Wednesday.