A Moment

It’s crazy how a single moment in your life can be a game wrecker. So many say not to let others bother you or to let things out of your control derail you. For me that has been hard. A single judgmental look and smile from a former coworker and a Facebook post from a former coworker about how my former job that I worked at almost 9 years gets together for dinners and I have not once been invited. I guess it’s no wonder I have been erased from that job’s memories since my life went to shit and none of them wanted to be my friend in my greatest time of need. I guess I should look at it as a blessing in disguise, since truly none of them were my true friends. But I can’t no matter how much I try. I am bothered by judgmental smiles and being excluded. I now sit here depressed, on the verge of tears, yes, a grown man so depressed that tears build up in the corners of my eyes. I am broken, my life shattered, maybe beyond repairing.