My dog needs surgery

Its amazing how one moment in the day you can feel amazing and on top of the world and the next moment totally in the dump. This is something I experience every day of my life with my bipolar. I recently started lithium treatment to try to get my mood swings in check, but it is a process. Not all my mood swings come entirely from the bipolar. Today was one of those days. I had just gotten home from work and was petting my dog when I hand went into her mouth as she tried to lick me. In her mouth she has a growth or tumor. This truly was a trigger that put me into a substantial state of depression. Seeing as currently have a crap job as I try to rebuild my life after the devastating events of last year. My first bit of depression comes from the fact that my dog is my life blood, they are what gives me the drive to move forward and she is still a youngster and I fear I will lose her very soon. My second bit of depression comes from the reality that I really can’t afford surgery for her with my crap job. I was making a small amount of money from my blog, but I got hit by a cyber attack and have now lost my ability to have ads. Life truly sucks and just when you feel you are getting on a good path overall and mentally something happens to put you right back into the mental health struggle.