Trick or Treat

Trick or treating was an amazing time, it was so nice to get out and have a good mental health night, although I must confess, I worried that people would judge me because of my age, luckily I look young than I am. I tried to push all my anxiety and depression, and racing thoughts to bed, but they did creep up some. Thoughts of the unknown and the fear that go along with it. Depression because I don’t know what is going to happen to me and I don’t know how much of a life I will be able to have soon. After trick or treating we went back to my friend’s house, and she had a little party. It was so nice because I never felt judged by anyone there. My friend’s niece came over and I instantly got anxiety and fear because besides her being an attractive girl, I had never had a social interaction with her before. She has super nice and talked to me and joked around with me which was super awesome, and I never felt judged by her either. This night allowed me to drift back into the good Nathan. I say this because I held and opened the door for my friend’s daughter, I also opened the door and held it for my friend and her niece. In addition, I also helped my friend’s niece’s son pick up marbles her had spilled. The only negative form it was that it made me realize that something I would love to have in probably not within my reach, that being a family of my own.