Value in struggles

Finding Strength in Past Struggles.

For so many including myself it is hard to see a positive from the struggles you have gone through or are currently going through. Struggles often shape us and change, they make us self-isolate and hide from a society filled with stereotypes and stigmas. A society that judges those going through a struggle. A society that makes those with a story hide their story and let others tell our story. I struggle everyday not just with my struggle with my mental health and legal issues, but also with a wonder of will the values and strengths I have gained from my past struggles and current struggles ever come to fruition. I was recently told by someone that I have been through hell and truly been hurt when it comes to relationships and friendships, and someone will be lucky to have a friendship or relationship with me because of know what it is like to go through hell and how not to treat someone. The problems with this notion by this person in my eyes are the facts. The fact that I will most certainly have a criminal record soon and truly how many females in this world will ever give me a chance or want to hear my narrative and make a decision based on that. Society and the media have painted me out to be a horrible person, a monster of sorts. The other fact related to the criminal record and the narrative that was created for me is outside of my therapist and psychiatrist no one has been willing to listen to or wanted to hear my narrative. Who knows if the incredibly nice and sweet girl from the other day would ever date a guy like me. The whole life has been filled with shitty friends and relationships, so maybe the key to truly finding friends and a relationship after my current struggle is to find someone that is truly nice and kind instead of a trash.

Currently my strength I realize from my struggles is a desire to make a difference in the world as it relates to mental health. I want to share my story, so no one ever has to go through the struggles I have been through. I never want someone to have to endure being on medications that make their symptoms on a sugar rush for over a year. I never want anyone that has a suicide attempt and survives be destroyed more by those around them, by being called selfish, a failure, an attention seeker, or in my case being told by someone they will teach you how to do it right next time. I have a ways to go to realize this strength as I have so far not made much of an impact with very few followers or visitors to my blog. But it only takes one person going through a struggle to see anything I post or produce to make an impact on someone’s life.

There is true value in the struggles you have been through or are currently going through. You need to find those that have also been through a struggle because these are the people that will not judge you and stereotype you. Going through a struggle and coming out the other side gives you a strength no one can ever take away from you. Often it is hard for ourselves to see the values and strengths we have gained from our struggles, that is why connect with others that have gone through struggles will give you someone willing and able to tell you what they see.