My mom’s death: Suicide or Murder

Yet another sleepless night. IS it caused by another new medication that was prescribed by my doctor for my mental health after so many have either been not working anymore or not working at all in the case of the new medications. Or is it caused by something deeper, much deeper inside. The desire to truly know what happened to my mom on August 5, 2023, when they found her floating in the river. Recently I got a call from her husband at the time of her death telling me that the autopsy results that I can even get information about were leaked to his lawyer and it showed no water in her lungs, which suggest murder over suicide. Up to this point many people have been suspicious of her passing, but for many I feel the best way to grieve is to assign a cause of death and go with it until answers come out. That cause of death for many was suicide due to the circumstances. In addition to the lawyer saying the information was leaked by the coroner’s office, he states the state police told him it was murder, and they have a suspect. IT has now been over six months, and nothing has happened. I just wish I had answers or that I could go back to that day and get the answers or even better stop it. For anyone that knows anything about my life, I have little to no faith in the police, so I personally feel I will never get the answers I seek. One thing that will never change is my desire to memorialize my mom.