October 24, 2022

So, the last few day my bipolar has been in overdrive. I have been still having the overwhelming feelings of paranoia and sadness, but now I am also experiencing a lose of drive to do daily tasks. This week my mind has been telling me that it doesn’t matter what I do everyone will always look at me in a negative light and no matter how much I try to get my mental health under control I am still going to go to prison for ten years. This in turn puts my fear into overdrive. Last night brought some good feelings, but also presented me with some additional anxiety. My friend’s daughter asked me if I would go trick or treating with her, this is the same friend’s daughter that recently had a suicide attempt. Of course, this brought some haters because people think it is weird to me mental health buddies with a high schooler. But all these haters don’t understand how great it feels to have someone that understand the mental health struggle no matter your age. I will be going trick or treating with her because it will be great for both of our mental health.