TheMighty.com 10/11/22

This past week has been a tough week for healing and keeping my mental health under control. This week has resulted in an episode of someone I used to work with taking my picture at Walmart to send to everyone, I know this because someone I still talk to told me they received the image. This comes at a time where the newspaper has now written two articles about me both front page which is filled with lies. In addition, this week my therapy used a chunk of our time to tell me about the Bumble dating app, I feel what once was a key to my healing and learning to handle my mental health has now become the complete opposite. This week’s Friday group therapy was horrible once again, with the same fellow member telling me I don’t have real issues and if he had my issues, he wouldn’t have any at all. All of this while so many telling me to not let others affect my life so much, has put a huge damper on my healing and getting my mental health under control. There are so few that are willing to stand by me and support me and show they care about me that I struggle to find the support I need to limit the impact of others on me. I feel like I am at a point with so much devaluing of what I am going through that I need to become the person that put value in my struggle. I have started a new hobby as part of my healing process of making bonsai trees, but only time will tell if it can bring Zen to my life. After a week that brought a hug and brought new hope that I am going to find the people that support me, I now sit her with my thoughts all over the place, fighting with trying to not let the actions of others affect me so much and finding the strength to persevere. I hate that others make me devalue my own struggle sometimes, but am I truly wrong for carrying about what others think about me despite their horribleness.